Acceptance of death

From: Joel Pitt (
Date: Thu Dec 02 2004 - 04:36:28 MST

Also would describe me, except throw some drugs in there for a brief
period of time before I realised they were pre-emptively destroying
everything worthwhile in my life.

Currently, I'm don't feel afraid, scared or anything else about death.
I am completely accepting about it. My grandmother slowly died of cancer
over a year while living with us, by the time she passed on it was a
blessing. I would like the singularity to allow us to fix all our human
flaws and actually make me *want* to live. I'm ambivalent to whether
I die, I don't delude myself into thinking I'm particularly special
(I'm smart enough to know I'm not smart enough) so I don't feel it would
be a loss to our species. I also think that once I'm dead, that my
existance is over so I won't have any regrets about dieing.

Perhaps if the things going on in the world didn't seem so bleak and the
general populace so uncaring and ignorant then I'd feel more kinship for
other people and that there was a point to everything.

Anyhow, despite my blase attitude to nonexistance, I'm still doing what
I can to forward the singularity so that maybe my attitude will change.


Metaqualia wrote:
> That would also describe me before I started studying singularity and
> transhumanist topics.
> I wasn't terrified at all, I became a hedonist and devoted my life to
> sex and music.
> Horror is not what you know will happen for certain, it is what you
> constantly fear and doubt about.
> Overall I am more depressed now because I worry about not being
> suspended properly...
> mq
> ----- Original Message ----- From: "gabriel C" <>
> To: <>
> Sent: Monday, November 22, 2004 4:50 AM
> Subject: RE: Yehuda Yudkowsky, 1985-2004
>> I wonder if there was ever an atheist who accepted the full
>>> horror, making no excuses, offering no consolations, who did not also
>>> hope for some future dawn. What must it be like to live in this
>>> world, seeing it just the way it is, and think that it will never
>>> change, never get any better?
>> That would describe me, before I stumbled upon this list in 1999.
>> Facing certain extinction, I was alternately terrified and depressed.
>> I still am, but now with a tiny thread of hope. Otherwise I think I
>> would be insane by now.

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